Saturday, March 17, 2007

i miss everyone...!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Apology

I apologize deeply if any of these blogs offended anybody,
i honestly forgot about this site,
and when i was writing in here i was going through a really rough time,
and i was really bitter on life.

so i am so sorry for my language and crudeness and general attitude towards everything,
alot has happened and im not the same person i was then.

so please dont judge me based on that.

im sorry.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

officialy F&FSAKCLEJLASD

My Mother
told
My Father.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

champagne for my real friends; real pain for my sham friends

everything has been going horribly.
every day justin and i spend in this place,
brings us down further and further.
he vows this is his last weekend here,
whether he has a ride or not (perhaps he will walk?)
thats how damaging this place is.

its less of an apartment, and more of a prison.
we spend every day locked in here trapped without money...
money isnt everything you say,
well around here it is.
all there is around here is a stupid playground where kids usually are,
and drunken teenagers go at night and piss all over the equipment.
and there are stores like shoppers drug mart and wal mart, and all sorts of marts.
but what good are they to us.
hell we can hardly afford to eat food.
my mom blames this on me.
even though, i couldnt possibly cost her much,
she stopped working overtime and therefore makes hundreds less each couple of weeks.
she doesnt have to pay extra for hydro or anything,
and we barely eat.

so.

i have to spend the summer in pants because i have no money for clothes.
i cant work at the moment because.
and well, ive thought about asking for welfare for the next few months,
until i go to kansas,
but even if that works,
my mom complains because she'll have to pay more in taxes to claim it..
but i obviously would pay her some rent for me staying here.
she says she doesnt want me to,
even if i didnt id buy my own food and stuff,
but she has to say she's charging me rent in order for me to get any help.
but again,
then she has to pay more in taxes.

no matter what happens im screwed.
this summer is going to be horrible.
well maybe not, im just bummin' today...

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

kitty on my foot and i want to touch it...meowmeow

millions of peaches, peaches for me.
gonna move into the country and eat me alotta peaches...
f*ck you kitty youre gonna spend the night
f*ck you kitty youre gonna spend the night
OUTSIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
peaches come from a can but they were put there by a man.
little blind spider took the wheel...

li'l dune buggy in the sand,
li'l blue dune buggy in mah hannnnnd.

quit spinnin' that web and come out and play in the sun.
she's lump, she might be dead/
meowmewmeowwwwwwwwmrow.
li'l bag of bones been out all night.

can yah hear 'em scratchin' at the screen door?
he's circlin' around my ankle,
he needs some pettin and luvin on his hyde/
git your ass inside.

A KITTY ON MY FOOT AND I WANNNNNNNNNNNNNA TOUCH IT.


stupid fathers.

Monday, June 12, 2006

flu?wha?

so ive finally come to the conclusion,
that justin and myself must have the worst luck.
we're wondering if its a sign for him to stay in canada,
but if it was im sure we'd be able to find him work.
would we not?

so here's the story.
every single time we find a way for justin to get home,
it goes horribly wrong.
well for those of you who know he was supposed to go home on saturday.
his friend and his mom were supposed to leave friday at midnightish,
to come here and get him by car.
well justin calls around 1ish,
and his friend is horribly sick,
puked 15 times, and wasnt able to come.
so now its all messed up and once again,
we have to concoct another plan.

its pretty much still the same plan,
but when? we're not sure.

so im sick all the time too.
booo-urns.

bible study tonight...

i guess thats really all i have to say cause i dont ever have much going on so i dont have much to write about...
hmmmmmmm.

the end.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

birthday wishes; champagne kissis

well i was happy a bit ago.
it's strange how something can happen so quickly,
and ruin your day.

aside from the fact that im sick 24-7,
justin can be difficult;
he's just so damn stubburn.
i mean, im no cup of tea either.
but im trying,
ugh.
men: i swear, i admit im wrong,
apologize,
yet hes still ignoring me.
oh well. he'll come around, but still. ugh.

my dad is a jerk,
i hate to say that,
cause its so typical.
i wish i was close to my parents,
its not like im trying to make things so horrible,
and trying to get everyone to pity me,
i just dont understand why he's so mean to me.
he thinks i fail at life,
maybe i do, i dont know.
but still, he's my dad and he should stick by me.
through anything.

tap.tap.tap.tap.tap.tap.TAP>TQAPSADPIASOPMAO

so bible study tomorrow,
yay,
i hope chrissy waits to show michelle the thing i made her til tomorrow.
i doubt she will though, that's okay,
it'd be cool though with everyone around.

well, im bored,
although i dont know what ill be going to do next.
so
hmm.

tah-taw.

<3xo