champagne for my real friends; real pain for my sham friends
everything has been going horribly.
every day justin and i spend in this place,
brings us down further and further.
he vows this is his last weekend here,
whether he has a ride or not (perhaps he will walk?)
thats how damaging this place is.
its less of an apartment, and more of a prison.
we spend every day locked in here trapped without money...
money isnt everything you say,
well around here it is.
all there is around here is a stupid playground where kids usually are,
and drunken teenagers go at night and piss all over the equipment.
and there are stores like shoppers drug mart and wal mart, and all sorts of marts.
but what good are they to us.
hell we can hardly afford to eat food.
my mom blames this on me.
even though, i couldnt possibly cost her much,
she stopped working overtime and therefore makes hundreds less each couple of weeks.
she doesnt have to pay extra for hydro or anything,
and we barely eat.
so.
i have to spend the summer in pants because i have no money for clothes.
i cant work at the moment because.
and well, ive thought about asking for welfare for the next few months,
until i go to kansas,
but even if that works,
my mom complains because she'll have to pay more in taxes to claim it..
but i obviously would pay her some rent for me staying here.
she says she doesnt want me to,
even if i didnt id buy my own food and stuff,
but she has to say she's charging me rent in order for me to get any help.
but again,
then she has to pay more in taxes.
no matter what happens im screwed.
this summer is going to be horrible.
well maybe not, im just bummin' today...